Nerdy tendencies may lead to great meditation moments.

The other day I found myself organizing my spice cupboards. Yes, I’m that nerdy. I am supposed to be getting outside my comfort zone, going up the mountain, or into town, getting myself out there. My recent need for the right kind of companionship in whatever form won’t come to my door, so I must get out and seek it. Sorting out my spice cupboard seemed to me to be a way to procrastinate, or stay in my orderly comfort zone. Or did it?

As a result I had several self deprecating thoughts. I was giving myself a hard time about not being brave enough to get out and about. I sometimes wonder if anyone could ever live with me, with my high standards of a neat, organized abode. It will certainly take a special someone to come into my world with use of a crowbar, neatly fitting in to some corner of the house, quietly reading. I know that’s not realistic. I kid.

Some friends had moved away recently, and they loved to buy spices from Penzey’s, as I do. I was lucky to inherit a bunch of lovely Penzey’s spices from them. But they had been sitting on a top shelf of my cupboard, ignored. I wanted to try some of the spices they left, and make everything available to me, as I am passionate about cooking. Time to make that happen! I had a lot of spices to bottle and label.

Cleaning out my spice cabinet made me feel somewhat guilty all the while I should be getting out and about. But no, I like organizing my spice cabinet! It’s a guilty, nerdy pleasure! I like making order where there was chaos. I like knowing what I have on hand in the kitchen. I like knowing where things are. As I was finishing up my task, I realized this activity felt good. It delivered me into a wonderful contemplative zone that is hard to find otherwise. Why was I heaping guilt on myself for not ‘getting out there?” That will come in time. Why not enjoy my guilty nerdy pleasure?

My insight from this experience was twofold. One, organizing, taking inventory, and doing a re-org, especially in the kitchen, was a wonderful meditation for me. It felt good. Two, it’s also kind of like the energy of sweeping the floor. That’s my switching gears energy task. My sweep out the old energy and bring in the new, task. I love it and I won’t let myself feel guilty for it. If you are engaged in a task you love, you are co-creating the life you want and enjoy.

What do you do that is a guilty pleasure? What do you do that might be an active/waking meditation that may seem nerdy but you absolutely enjoy? I would love to hear from you.

Comments are welcome. Likes tell me someone is listening. Love and Light, Patty

The Universe is…what exactly?

I am sure you often hear people talk about manifesting and working with Spirit by saying ‘The Universe wants me to do this or that” or “The Universe is sending me signs” or “I like it when The Universe supports me” and so on. I use that phrase a lot and I hear it a lot. Two friends helped me to understand The Universe better from a personal standpoint. Each person’s take on it was insightful and of value to me, and came through normal conversation.

When I used to think of the phrase The Universe this Hubble image came to mind, along with Carl Sagan’s booming voice. It shows about 10,000 galaxies. (Not planets, galaxies!). This version of The Universe seems far away, immense, cold and unreachable. Something way bigger than me that is hard to comprehend. Like it’s out there somewhere, but not available to a tiny speck like me.

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Image credit: NASA, ESA and the HST Frontier Fields team (STScI), Acknowledgement: Judy Schmidt)

One friend was writing a heartfelt email where she was musing about what was going on at her end of the world. It had been a difficult year. At the end of a sentence she used the phrase “Everything is the Universe.” It struck me like a ton of bricks, in a way that got me thinking. We usually say it the other way around—The Universe is everything. Turning that phrase around opened me up wide and put me on my head. When I heard it said that way, my thoughts were of my immediate surroundings, something tangible I can see, smell, hear, sense and interact with. Everything as the universe means it is inside of me first and foremost. You are the Universe and so am I. The penny has dropped.

Another friend was replying to an email where I was conflicted about an ongoing problem. I wrote to her, “The Universe is sending me signs to stop doing XYZ.” She said, “Oh Patty, the Universe is IN you! You ARE the Universe! These are signs and message from you that you need to listen to.” Put that way, it makes much more sense to me. Again it brings The Universe right here in the palm of my hand, right here in my heart. I can examine it, and look at it.

These realizations lead me to several other insights. I have a new center I can act from. It puts the Universe as me at the center of things. I am no longer cowering under the thousands of galaxies above me. The Universe and my higher self are all here and available to me. Always have been. I am a co-creator and at my own center of the Me-Verse. It’s freeing and powerful at the same time. You are a big part of The Universe, part of the woof and weft. And so is everyone and everything else! We are all connected to everything.

With this new Universe as You realization, past lessons come boldly to light and you may laugh at what you went through. You marvel at your actions before the light dawned. It may have seemed that you muddled through, but now you can see things differently. You did enormously well! Look at how you solved that problem and grew from it. My marriage was horrible, yet it was the biggest teacher of my life. I am deeply indebted and grateful for the experience. It changed me from head to toe, from inside out. Comfort yourself with the idea that Spirit grows through us and how we deal with our experiences. We are incredible co-creators indeed!

Between 1990 and 1993 the Hubble was having focusing problems and images were fuzzy and out of focus. I adopted the phrase “things are getting all Hubbly” to mean something was out of focus. All my pondering of The Universe phraseology was rattling around in my head becoming clearer. I have dumped the phrase “The Universe” and I now say “The Me.” The lines of division between everything melt and there is a feeling of oneness. Things are coming into focus, I’m seeing it closer, clearer, less Hubbly.

Note: The books I am currently reading that have helped things come into focus are: a re-reading of The Power of Now, by Eckhart Tolle. Falling into Grace: Insights on the End of Suffering, by Adyashanti, and a newsletter and articles by a shamanic place in New Mexico called The Power Path. The latest article I read is on Opening the relationship with your higher self.

Comments are welcome. “Likes” tell me someone is listening. Love and Light, Patty

Note to self: Begging is not co-creating

Funny how a simple statement like the headline above has to be learned. Last week Friday I discovered all three dogs had cattle ticks deep in their ears. In the past they have had to go under anesthesia to remove ticks from the ear drum. Expensive time consuming, hard on the animal, and disruptive. Situations like these can bring on a mild panic. My regular vet was out of town so I had to make some calls. Finally I found a place that would take all three dogs. Small miracle! As a friend put it, I did a great job of co-creating to make that happen, through a passionate heart. (I love feedback like that.) So far so good.

As the day unfolded, what would normally be a stressful situation was somehow okay. I noticed a small tug when I felt panic rising about what could be an expensive, time consuming aftercare nightmare. This tug I felt made me feel more grounded. More calm. I gave credit to this new feeling to meditating regularly using Headspace. (Thanks Judy!) Meditating is relatively new for me and without the Headspace app, it would not be possible. As a result I am making progress in handling what life throws me. I am continually finding places to improve that will help me feel more grounded in all situations. Life takes practice. Often one small step at a time.

After the vet visit, in my rush to get back home, I realized one dog had no ticks but still had ear problems and I had not discussed it with the vet. The pain would send my dog rocketing across the room in a fright. Through the weekend we were unable to sleep. Monday I took him to the vet again, and we decided to have him neutered while he was under anesthesia for the ear checkup. It was long overdue and would be nice to get that out of the way.

Life can be stressful with a recovering animal. This particular pet goes into freakout mode so easily. I live 42 miles from work (one way). I spend time planning and making sure everything’s hunky dory so I can care for my pets and fit the rest of life in there somehow. I can’t run an errand or grocery shop with a pet in the car it’s too hot here yet. Too much activity wears me out. I needed to be able to care for my dog, Goat Cheese, and have a clear mind for my job. (Cochise is his name, but it’s hard for many to pronounce, so we call him Goat Cheese.) I had already taken most of Friday off for the first dog emergency and I felt bad about having to take more time off. Time to talk to Spirit.

As I was driving to the vet to pick up Goat Cheese after his surgery, I was talking to Spirit asking “Please make sure everything is great….so I don’t freak out. So I can handle it.” But I stopped mid sentence and changed my mind altogether. My plea did not sound right. I thought, hey let’s do it a new way instead. Let’s confirm with Spirit that I will handle anything that comes my way. Small changes can bring big results. My new wording was a complete reversal. Asking for things to be okay is begging and that didn’t feel right to me. By changing my verbiage, I am affirming with with Spirit that I will be able to handle anything, as in “I can do this.” This felt much more positive, light and happy. In fact it felt very freeing! I was filled with confidence and I was happy! You can’t help but be happy when you know you can handle anything. This was a way of positively anticipating feelings of groundlessness or anything contrary to the norm. More growth!

Spiritually minded people know the time of duality is ending and oneness is coming. But right now we are all in the trenches, and life is going to present us with a lot of chaos. No one wants this. We all want a relatively stress free life. But we all know that is not how life is at the moment. Anything that is out of sync, possibly stressful can be upsetting emotionally. We all want to go back to our normal routine for that feeling of safety and security. For me, I hate it when any of my animals is sick or hurt. They are my kids. It is another Achilles Heel. Since I teach others to handle life with grace and ease, I ought to practice what I preach. I realized mid-sentence that begging is not a great way of co-creating. To ask or beg is to be in reactive mode, not in co-creative mode. Now we’re cooking with gas! This changes everything. It empowers, thrills and delights!

Having blogged about this previously, it can’t hurt to remind my readers that putting new habits into practice can be an ongoing process. It takes time to make a new behavior and a new mindset and way of life. No one is perfect, especially me!

“For years I have read about, and really tried integrating this mindfulness into everyday life. But life has a way of making you rushed and crazy sometimes…It’s going to take some time for it to really come home to roost. I’m not yet at the point of 24/7 mindfulness or totally unstressed life. But, coming a little closer to it doesn’t suck!”

I also recently talked about the obvious solution to feeling rushed off your feet here, so why am I still needing to improve when I already know the answer?  Because I am a spiritual being in human body. We need time to really incorporate things we know (intellectually) into our lives until we get it on a whole other level, a soul level. Practice makes perfect, unless you have an a-ha moment. That’s instant!

Learning to handle stressful situations by dumping the idea of being panicked is something I will work on until I get it. It’s all I have talked about to others: Living in the moment, being the author of your life, dropping the worry, not jumping to conclusions, trusting that Spirit has my back, flipping it, and so on. This time I was a little closer. I felt a little better and a little more grounded. Good co-creating means learning to tackle your demons along the way. Tackling these demons can become some of the most freeing moments of your life.

Clutter holds energy, let it loose!

Okay, this is not a how-to guide for decluttering your home or environment, although I could certainly write an article about that. I was born to organize and declutter. However for almost two decades, I lived with a man who was a hoarder. At the time, I had no word for it. It started slowly and grew exponentially as our my spouse and the relationship fell out of center. Every room had a path through it that was about two feet wide. Boxes, clothing, computer pieces, camera parts, papers of all kinds and other assorted flotsam filled rooms to bursting. Sometimes up to the ceiling! There was no rhyme or reason to it, and none of the items had any use or value.Boxes-empty_165169310.jpgI could not staunch the flow, no matter what I tried. I could hardly live like this and combatted it daily. It crept under my skin during the day, and practically exploded out of me at night. It was like a thing that lived with us that was evil. But my spouse would have a week long fit, exploding in rage, if I were so rude as to mention ‘the mess.’ He didn’t see it that way and he felt I was nagging and unfair to him. Apparently I was the bad guy in this scenario.

I begged to clean up on the weekends when we had time. He’d oblige, and then ten minutes into it he’d have this ‘great idea’ to go to the hardware store to get materials for building shelves. Shelves for more junk. Shelves to organize the junk. Or 30 large plastic tubs to store all the junk in. To this day I can’t stand the sight of those big blue plastic tubs. We would spend all day at the hardware store, come home, spend ten more minutes on cleaning and quit. Now not only was there a huge mess, but a mess of building materials on top of everything else clogging up one of the few free areas left to me.

When we moved to a small 350 square foot apartment in Manhattan, I thought for sure we’d downsize. He insisted we take everything. In his absence, I threw out as much as possible. When we arrived, it took two full days to unpack the largest moving van money could rent. It all went up inside my tiny, clean, perfect apartment. There were stacks of boxes now that stood almost 11 feet high! Again there were only small paths between them. Almost no place for a bed. Nothing changed most of the nine years we spent there. Needless to say, we rarely had company.

After Manhattan, we moved to New Mexico. Finally we had a piece of property and some room to stretch out! However the home soon filled up with junk. A second building filled up with junk, soon Continue reading

The long exhale

The two years of unwinding on all levels after my divorce was a period I refer to as The Long Exhale. Being in a poisonous, dramatic, very chaotic environment for 18 years did some major damage. I recall the first day after my husband was kicked off the property by the police and the divorce was proceeding. I knew there was a huge shit storm coming my way, because he was a supreme manipulator and a huge drama queen. He hated being challenged or bested and he was the ‘never give up’ kind of guy. I was in for the ride of my life, but I knew divorce was at hand. My life depended on it. The first day back at the property after I had just arrived home from work, I got out of the car, was greeted by my animals and heard myself say out loud “I’m going to be just fine!” I don’t even know what part of me said that! But it was nice to hear. I was a very happy camper to finally be out of that nightmare. I was now the captain of my own ship!

During the time of The Big Change, I dropped so much of my old life by the wayside. Dropped bad habits, old outdated ideas. I got my self confidence back bit by bit. The support came from many places: friends, Buddhist lectures, work and co-workers, taking up a life with horses, etc. Help manifested itself in so many ways. I had much to dump, much to relearn and so much to explore. It was like shedding an old skin that no longer suited me and being totally reborn, from head to toe. But it took a long time for this to happen. This sort of deep change comes slowly. But is well worth it.

The single life suits me very well and I never in my life thought I would be totally content and happy being single. My new life is very different than my old life, and all of it is by my own design. Things I want in my life are there, or coming into being. Things I don’t want have been tossed out, abandoned or given the heave-ho. In order to get to this new life, it took a lot of work, exploring, research and guts that I didn’t know I had. I would never trade this new life for anything else on the planet. But it took a lot of work to get to this point, this new level of living co-creatively.

If you have been through a rough patch, regardless of the length of time you were in it, please give yourself time to heal, adjust, renew, replenish, explore, test, and invent your new life. You have an opportunity to reinvent yourself. This will be a great time of growth. Give yourself and your body a huge break from being perfect or meeting anyone else’s expectations, especially your own. You may need a long exhale too.

What is co-creating?

I don’t remember when I first heard that term, but I was not sure I understood exactly what co-creating meant. So, take off the cowgirl hat and put on the detective hat. It started with my first basic observation that everything is energy.

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We live in, and are part of something I call Universal Flow. Once I was more in tune with this flow, I learned to recognize intuition, how it manifests, and how to use it. By using my intuition through paying attention to how it manifested in my body, using the Law of Attraction, and asking for and receiving guidance from Spirit, I started consciously co-creating. I developed my skills with routine, everyday tasks to build on my experience. Now it’s as easy as breathing.  Continue reading

What the heck is Universal Flow?

So, you ask what the heck is Universal Flow? You talk about it all the time and it’s one of the classes you teach. The answer boys and girls is, it’s the energetic flow of life all around you, and within you. This includes all of nature, emotions, feelings, people, and even places. You can tap into it, go with the flow, get a read on different situations and act accordingly. Much like surfing, there will be ups and downs in the flow, but you can learn to ride these waves.

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It’s a place of feeling, sensing or knowing. Have you ever walked into a room and, without anyone saying a word, you can feel there is tension as thick as pea soup? That’s you sensing the Universal Flow in one particular flavor. Tension, which is fear based. Everyone in the room contributes to this in one form or another. They may be creating the tension by stirring the pot or confronting someone. Or they may be bystanders affected by witnessing the events unfolding.

You might feel a different flavor of Flow in a crowded event that is fun and uplifting. It’s not just your own emotions you are feeling, there is also a general vibe that is being broadcast. Especially an event with a lot of people such as an outdoor concert. Remember, you are a sender and receiver of energetic vibrations. Here is an article on the topic by Steve Pavlina.

One place where you are sure to pick up on this vibe is almost any airport. Most everyone is in a rush, hates the ordeal of checking in hours before their flight, standing in line, waiting for their flight, and hearing of delays. For me it is going into one particular chain store, larger than several football fields. The air is stale and seems to suck the very life essence out of me after about five minutes! I take special pains to not go in that store, if I don’t absolutely have to. The vibe in there is awful.

Setting your inner vibe to a loving intent for the day helps you to sense the lay of the land of the bigger picture—the Universal Flow. This is also a place from which you may apply the Law of Attraction. You are working in a co-creative effort when you use your intent and the Laws of Attraction to direct your life. If you have an intent of loving kindness, you will attract more of the same. Life is a lot easier that way!

Once you are open to feeling and sensing different energies from people, places and events, you will start getting intuitive nudges on how to act, what to do. You will feel more confident in trusting your own intuition and going with the flow. These intuitive hits or nudges may help you in difficult situations, as well as everyday, routine tasks. In any case, that’s my simplified version of what Universal Flow is. I use it every single day, in every part of my life, no matter how small, and I have never felt more empowered or free!

The Law of Attraction

I’m not sure who started this line of thinking, or coined that term, but if you are not familiar with it, there is a lot of reading you can do online. Mike Dooley is great at speaking on the topic. The Secret by Rhonda Byrne is another good source. Neither of these people invented this law, or this idea, but they do explain it well. You can probably search YouTube as well with some success. In fact many hundreds of authors, books, and websites are devoted to explaining this universal law. Do your research but have fun and use your intuition. A great piece of advice is only accept the information that resonates with you.

In a nutshell the Law of Attraction:

  • Tell the Universe what you want.
  • Imagine the goal as finished with all the bells and whistles, with you in the middle jumping up and down, happy, smiling, thrilled with the outcome.
  • Let go of ‘how’ things will manifest. Allow for the Universe to help you to your goal in ways you may not have expected. After all, Spirit may have more creative ideas that you may never have dreamed of, in reaching your goal.
  • Every single day take baby steps to get to your goal
  • Express genuine gratitude each day
  • Keep a good attitude about the process and what you are manifesting. Remember thoughts become things.

It is a way many people manifest what they want in their life using the matrix of Universal energy. It’s part of co-creating the life you want. Try it out and have fun with it.